This is my last post here and very shortly, mellowmasher.com will be no-more.

Life has been somewhat testing over the past few months and this year has not started anywhere near as good as I would have hoped.

I am a VERY positive person but even I have been left wondering how much more one can take.

I thank those that have read and commented over the months – I love you lots but the time has come for me to focus on life.  Domaining has gone from shit to super shit over the past months and I have not the time or energy anymore.

I will always be a member of Namepros a place I adore but realise that I need to focus on life and not domains.

BIG HUGS to you all..

Well Christmas seems to have come and gone at the speed of lightning.

After spending a few fab days at my lovely parents, I am back home looking forward to going back to work on Monday…. NOT

Any New Years resolutions have already been broken but I do plan on taking more interest in my health this year.. Monday is always a good time to start so for today and tomorrow – I will enjoy.

I am looking forward to 2010. I can feel some changes in the air

Urrr dont you just hate paying to be told *I’m sorry we are busy helping other customers. Your call is important, please hold*

I would love to know how much money over my life-time I have paid to listen to this crap. Bring back the good old engaged tone that didn’t cost me any money.

More often then not the music is super annoying …

At this time I am waiting to be answered by the bank ABBEY…  Does anybody care.. They obviously don’t

How much money do these companies make out of us all each year

KEEPING US ON HOLD URRRRRRRR

Nothing more on the home front at the moment.. Partner is still at home but is getting better day by day.. It is very slow but who cares slow up-wards is great. Doctors are still unsure as to what and why .. More tests to follow so will have to wait and see.

I have just been chilling watching Ian, mel and Kate on the studio live show and must say I do like the banter. I have just sent them a twitter to share some views . I had earlier this week – when I learnt that Cheryl Cole’s hair is in fact fake. Not something that normally bothers me but as I had just watched an advertisement on television where she is getting paid to advertise a fab new hair shampoo, feel that fake is not always the way to go …

Going to get a glass of wine then chill out and watch Top Gear… A class programme.

Night

Ok.. where are we at.

Today we went to see the doctor whom I must say has been great and has one of the best bed side manners I have seen. He told us that at the time my partner was admitted to hospital his kidneys were in near failure and had he not got the treatment he did at that time, would have died … But he did and he didn’t

He’s Iron level is still very low and as they are worried about a possible internal bleed, need some stool (poo) samples and hey.. guess whom has got that job:p

He has been given a 5 day course of steriods to see if that helps .

Things are far from right but far from what they were and every day he is alive I am happy..

But as you know thats how I think in general.. Life is a gift and each day each of us has it… a blessing

Take care

Not so long ago I posted that my life was non-eventful and that was how I liked it.. How true that was.  Life has been anything but that of late and the last few days even more stressful then normal.

I have some solid friends both off and on the net and I thank all for the offers of help or just an ear to cry on.

Tomorrow he has to go for more tests to see where we are at but homelife has taken on another form

For 20 years now he has been a solid partner and perfect companion but of late the mood has changed and tonight after asking if he he felt ok I got a whole host of verbal abuse about how I am keeping on… Obviousbly my training kicked in so I ended any potential long term row very quickly but this is not the first time over the past few days and I am sure not the last.

He’s memory is somewhat lapse and he will argue til black and blue that he is right or that he never said what he really did..

Not sure what corner this is but its not one I am happy with

What is going on I really do not know. The doctor – although not very happy to let him out of hospital, did  as my partner said he was feeling so much better and would like to come home. A day and a half later I have just had to dial 999 and am awaiting my daughters arrival from school where we will join him in A&E for what I am sure is going to be another very long night.

My daughter will be devastated when she arrives home. She is very much a daddys girl and they have a great close relationship

Well back to the hospital we go.

Alittle nearer to an answer and yet still so far away. The results of the CT scan showed  a blockage of the bile canal from the liver to the gallbladder. Having ruled out gallstones, they are now looking to see if there is a tumour in or around the area. Having my insight is somewhat a hindrance at this time as a little knowledge is not always a good thing.  I know that tumours around this area… once they show symptoms – prognosis is not good.

I am so deeply tired and stressed now this has been a very long hard week. I am still hopeful that the results come back negative. I am trying to be as honest with my daughter as possible without alarm or showing my fears..It’s hard

I’m just so very very tired.. I need to rest and be strong and see what happens now …

It’s Friday morning and we are still not 100% sure what is going on. It has been a long week of test and scans but still no clear answer as to what is wrong. We do know that he has had multi organ failure they think due to the blood poisoning but after anitbiotics he’s organs do appear to be reacting positively. He is still very poorly but we should know much more today as the results of the CT scan will be there.

I will let you know

Over the past week my boyfriend has been feeling rather shitty. Sickness, extreme tiredness, and a whole host of other symptoms. Yesterday I noticed some unexplained bruises and as he was still feeling bad, decided to call the on-duty doctor. After a little trip to the local hospital for the out of hours clinic we came away with some antibiotics and told to have some blood tests done in the morning.

My partner is not the best of resters but we did come home and have a rather lazy afternoon and he felt somewhat better. Not being one for just calling in sick, he decided to go to work today only to be sick on arrival and sent home.  The bruises were growing and so he went to have the blood tests and made an appointment late morning to see his GP.

I had just got home from work when the doctor phoned home to say they had received the results of the blood test and we were to come into hospital straight away

Its now 11.30pm and I have just got home. I have had to leave him there after 5 hours of investigations have left the doctors knowing he has some kind of blood poisoning/infection but not really knowing exactly what it is. He will undergo more tests in the next few hours so hopefully when I return in the morning, will know alittle more.

For now he is in the best place.

Thanks for listening